I feel incredibly, incredibly thankful. Some days I feel like myself again and my purpose is clear. He is very good, despite everything I’ve been through and everything I’ve done, I can only try to be better now and bring that humanity to the work that I do.
With every ending comes another uncertainty. It’s in this uncertainty I find myself at my worst: lethargic, hopeless. I can only hope that I’ve learned from that and that I can move forward better with gratitude, focus and a sense of being present.
And on you. I don’t want to care about you the way I do- but I do. I’m so aware of the reality. Then I get annoyed at myself- wondering why, seriously why? There are qualities about you that I do like and the ones that I don’t I find oddly charming. I will miss you though you don’t see me in that way. I’ll miss you and I better get over this soon. If only you knew.